Heart-Strings | Portland Wedding Photographer

As most of you know by now, I have a heart for Jesus and a calling to share my faith and life with the world. I, like you, am far from perfect, vulnerable, often frightened, scared, and un-sure of life. I have been on an incredible journey these last 5 years both on a business level and on a personal level. I have learned that leaning on Jesus is the only sure thing I have in this world, and that He is the one who leads my path.

I'm being called on a 40 day prayer project from scarlettlovesstephen and Scarlett'n new devotional PROSPER. As soon as I read the introduction to Scarlett's project, I felt the Lord tugging at my heart that this 40 day prayer challenge was something I needed to embark on. The past year has been full of uncertainty... in my marriage, with Enzo, in buying a new home, in business, in so many ways. I know I need to take the next step in my faith and I believe this challenge is the beginning of that path.

"I can't imagine my life without Jesus as my guiding light..."

This week I was yet again reminded of all that we have gone through this year. Enzo, being born 13 weeks early, has many obstacles still to face and overcome. He is thriving, and beautiful, and we are so blessed with our precious little boy. Two weeks ago Enzo had his Occupational Therapy Evaluation and during the session, the therapist had a few concerns and thought it would be best for us to plan on attending some physical therapy sessions to help see if we could correct the problems. This week I received a call from the OT therapist as well as her report in the mail of her evaluation. Reading her clinical words broke my heart and instantly turned my stomach into knots. Though her observations were not definitive, it is evident that her concerns are valid and that Enzo could have some developmental issues that are starting to present. As a mother, we don't want to believe that anything could be wrong with our children. As much as I want to turn my back, look the other way, and pretend that I know he is fine, I just can't. My heart is being lead to starting the therapy with Enzo, and as hard and scary as it is, I know that the Lord is leading this path. A week ago I prayed for clarity, that I might see a clear picture of what He intends for us to partake with Enzo, and I now can wholeheartedly trust that He is leading us into therapy. I don't know what the outcome will be, but I can trust in Jesus as he whispers to my heart what the next step is to take.

I can't imagine my life without Jesus as my guiding light. It isn't ironic that after the news we received this week regarding Enzo, that Scarlett would reveal her 40 days of prayer project. God knows all and is in control of all, and it is not by chance, but by His incredible will and plan that just one day after being rattled with this news I would be lead to this project who's sole purpose is to learn to lean fully on Jesus.

I find so much comfort in knowing He is always there, to lead me, love me, guide me, and walk beside me.

 "¹⁶ That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are being renewed every day. ¹⁷ For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! ¹⁸ So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever."

2 Corinthians 4:16-18

Until next time,

Blessings and Love to you all!
-Ciao' Bella!